I’ve written you letters before and this is the only one I’m not gonna tell you about. I think. I haven’t really decided yet. Anyways. These are the thoughts I don’t wanna tell you.
After you joined the military and I moved to take my masters, we only see each other once a month or so. It’s going so much better than I thought! I love you so much, and I know you love me too. I still carry one little secret. As you know, I am very inpatient, and once a month or so, I think about what if today is our last?
Someone once told me to live the life I wanted, right now. I realize I still have to spend time studying, working and other chores, but I want a family, a home to call my own. I see the girls we grew up with starting their families, and I see friends loosing dear ones way to often these days. I know we could manage it if we were to start our family. I’m torn! I LOVE our lives now, but as said, once in a while this thought strikes me, and I wish I could tell you! I wish I knew what you felt so we could talk about it?
I know how much you love me, and believe me, it goes both ways. I’ve never been as happy as I am right now. You and me forever babe. Pinky swear.